People donít tend to realize this, but lonelinessÖItís underrated. Severely so. We, as people, donít like to be alone. Just the term itself can make some of us feel instantly depressed, just a little at the least.
But, the way I see itÖThe only reason anyone would dislike being alone is because they donít like who theyíre alone with.
Because then, thereís nothing to distract you from your own thoughts.
Your own fears.
Your own guilt.
Your secrets.
Your uncertainty.
And all the things that keep you up at night.
We truly are our own worst enemies.

Lately- and I suppose I use the term loosely- itís felt like the whole world was falling apart, that hardly anything adds up to something steady and IÖ Well Iíve never really had a clue what to do. So I overcompensate with silly things. Acting obnoxious at any given social gathering, making bad jokes, diving into work projects (such as theater) -some of which I hadnít shown any interest in before (such as mock trial)- and most of these remunerations involve being around other people.

Concisely, I really like myself alone. I wouldnít say itís exactly a trait i have that is reverse of most people, because I still have to sit and solve all the same troubles I mentioned above, but not feeling the need to make restitution outweighs said anxieties by far.

Iíve noticed that all of my written works reflect an entirely different person then the ashli jade that most people are accustomed to and I guess thatís the most concrete proof of this concept.

Maybe that’s the case with a lot of people.

The question is: Why are we afraid to be our ‘alone’ self in a social gathering? What are we hiding behind, and more importantly… why?

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About Ashli Jade

is an acquisitive admirer of all things considered impossible. A temperamental girl with an affection for affirmative thoughts as well as attractive alliteration. Inspired by philosophical thoughts, dreams, pictures, and a series of other terribly cliche things.

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